WTF?!?!

Ok so I well never post twice a day but I felt like I had to this time...I went around reading alot of my friends blogs..and I even found some other friends I just hate that I can't add them...This is kinda gay...I am not big on blogspot anymore..I can't add friends that's retarded..
Anyways....

So as I was reading alot of my friends blogs..I was beginning to feel sad. I know that its not me that is making things go weird at my old high school but I feel like its me who can maybe do something about it. A bunch of my friends seem to be living crappy days right now and I don't like that. These friends happen to be some of my closest friends and I don't like to see them sad. I don't know whats going on but I do know that I want to know. I want to be there for my friends just as they have been there for me from time to time. I plan on visiting Falls Church High School again soon so that I can be with my friends.

I know it wasn't me that was holding the bonds but when I left Falls Church I felt like something was going to happen to my friends and if I wasn't there that maybe it would get worse. I don't want to sound like I am godly or that the world revolves around me, but something made me feel like something was going to happen to my friends if I left FCHS. There was even a time when I felt like my friends didn't like me..And to tell you the truth..I still sometimes feel that way. Maybe they think I am an embarrassment to them or I bring them shame, but as long as they don't tell me other wise, I don't know if me hanging out them is ok with them.

I know I can be silly and retarded and weird most of the time but its who I am....Ok wow getting off topic...Maybe tomorrow I will post more about this...

Right now with Work and School, its been really hard for me to spend time with my friends and I think its weird that my closest friends are the ones who are finishing up high school. They are way younger than me, but they are cool and they seem to be cool with me. Most of the people my age are the ghetto retarded people and I don't really like that..But most of my graduating class from FCHS were pretty cool..just not as cool as the friends that are still attending Falls Church.

Anyways I don't know whats wrong with them and I wish that if there was anything I could possibly do to help out that they know they can always come to me and ask me for help or advice. I am their friend whether or not they like me, and I will always be there for them.

If any of you guys are reading, please come to me if you need any type of help. I will do anything within my power to help you guys out, whether for school, life, help getting a job, advice for relationships, kickin someones ass, anything at all, I'm here for you guys. I've always said that if I was in the hospital would any of my friends ever come visit me...I know that I would visit you guys, but in order for me to do that, I need to know you are in the hospital. I need some way of knowing that you are there so I can come. So if you guys need help, tell me, I want to visit you if you are having troubles.